Life, death and black humour: on duty with the London ambulance service
It’s 6.45am at Camden ambulance station in north London, and the day shift is just beginning. Andy Donovan, who will drive the ambulance I will accompany for the next nine hours, is making me a cup of tea. His more senior paramedic partner, Dean Lowes, is running a few minutes late. When he does arrive, Lowes looks very sorry for himself: he’s got an ear infection, picked up on a friend’s stag weekend in Budapest. Lowes is the ambulance’s first case of the day. They nip off to the nearby Royal Free hospital in Hampstead to get some ear drops. Paramedic, heal thyself.
All this delays us for more than an hour, and we’re not ready to “go green” – telling the London ambulance service’s call centre near Waterloo station that they are available for a job – until after 8.30am. Lowes, who along with Donovan is featured in the BBC’s new three-part series on London’s overstretched ambulance service, is suitably embarrassed. “This never happens to me,” he says. “I’m never ill.” But full marks for at least getting here. Crewing an ambulance is challenging at the best of times.
Soon after going green, our first assignment comes in, flashing up on a monitor at the front of the ambulance. It’s just about as unpleasant as it could be. One word: “HANGING”, and the location. It is a “Red One” – the top-priority call sign, meaning life-threatening. Lowes and Donovan’s speed of reaction is electrifying. One moment, Lowes had been playing a Kings of Leon track on his mobile and saying how much he liked the band; the next, the ambulance is tearing south towards King’s Cross.
The call comes through at 8.49, and we get to the scene five minutes later. My heart sinks when I realise it is student accommodation. Two policemen are arriving simultaneously, and we all head up two floors in the lift to a stuffy, antiseptic white corridor. I go up with the policemen, who are bemoaning the fact their car was the closest to the scene. “You had a feeling it was going to be a funny day,” one says to the other. “You said you had a feeling in your bones.” “Yeah,” says the other with a grim laugh, “I should shut the fuck up.” In situations like this, black humour is sometimes the only way out.
Lowes, as senior paramedic, is first into the little study-bedroom. He has to decide if the student, who appears to have hanged himself, is dead, or, in the official language they use, to declare “life extinct”. It takes him just moments to satisfy himself that he is. The student is pronounced dead at 8.57. I can’t bring myself to look at the body – the young man is fully clothed – for too long. What strikes me most is how peaceful he looks, and how red his hands are – the blood drains down to the hands and feet, a sign he has been dead for several hours.
Within minutes there are half a dozen police on the scene, taking a statement from the traumatised fellow student who discovered the body, talking to the staff in the hall of residence, looking through the young man’s possessions to establish his identity. It has ceased to be a medical emergency and become a police inquiry – and a personal tragedy for the family who do not yet know what has happened. It appears the young man, who was 23, was anxious about a dissertation he had failed to deliver. What a terrible, pointless waste.
This is a shocking beginning. A suicide by hanging is rare. It is the first Lowes has witnessed. “He looked like a wax dummy,” he says as we wait downstairs while he does the paperwork to certify the death. “It’s when you see his passport and the picture of how he looked when he was alive that it hits you. That humanises it.” Having been a body, he becomes a person. “I try not to look at a dead person’s effects too much,” says Lowes, “because you start to build a little story about them.” “You can’t go into it too deeply,” adds Donovan. “There’s a lot of stuff you lock in the box.”
A paramedic team leader turns up. He doesn’t say so, but Lowes and Donovan know he is there for their welfare – to make sure that having to deal with the young man’s death has not affected them too severely. “If you want to take a bit of a break, that’s fine,” the team leader tells them. They don’t particularly, although they do have a fag standing next to their ambulance. The morning is hot, and people stroll past the student block, laughing in the late-summer sunshine, not realising that inside a promising young life has been extinguished.
By 11am, they are ready to roll again. They go green, pressing the button that declares the ambulance available, and in a second – literally – their next assignment flashes up. It’s another Red One – a cardiac arrest in West Hampstead, a couple of miles to the north. The siren screams, I lurch around in the back of the ambulance feeling sick, and Donovan swears at the vehicles that block his way, costing him vital seconds that could mean the difference between life and death.
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